Peace,Love&Kisses; Elle
-----p01
"I'm so sorry, Boiz, Gurlz &
Boths, Readers & Lurkers &, if I still have any, Fans! I've
not posted a thing of late for the simple fact that, when I do get
some time to sit down & have fun with things like captions, I do
like to browse others' blogs and drop them a comment or an
"epELLEogue" to show support & thanks for their work
and inspiration. I also get carried away with looking for images as I
imag-ine having the female body I might have had if my genetic
potential was manifested as the short, voluptuous, raven-haired women
in my family!
"Honestly, I am wondering if I am
done making captions, as my mind ponders things going on in the world
and my R-L, I find that writing fantasies of TG/TF &
intersexuality are not coming as easily as they used to. Not that I
don't still have oodles of ideas & tales to tell, or several
projects that I owe gurlz at Rachel's & some requests for readers
here, but it seems that things just get in the way more & more or
I simply cannot concentrate on a story long enough to finish.
"I do not want to stop doing
captions, but I don't know if I should shut myself down?!"
-----p02
"I mean, what good is there in
sharing with all of you a fantasy of looking like this, with my small
hand holding my huge breast and my slim digits parting my wet labia
as though one of you might actually lean your pretty face in here and
suck on my teat or start lapping at the pussy I'll never actually
have in this life, or even fuck me with a gorgeous, engorged
she-cock?!
"Even if I had the balls to get
rid of my balls & become like a woman by available means; Or if
some of you did have a way of doing it like so many cappers have
wished, I
have still mode commitments I aim to
keep for right or not.
"And whether I write caps or just
keep my dreams of being in a female form to myself...
"Is it wrong to ask if you do get
aroused or climax to my words, or that I want you to say whether you
hope I stay?
"I know I've not been great at
keeping in touch with you who I consider friends in TG-Cap/Fic-tion
fantasy realms, and I know that my work has been sporadic at best,
but it seems that time creeps into a place from which it cannot be
recovered by hope or wish!
"Will you miss me if I go?"
Silly, of course you will be missed. Fantasies and dreams aren't real. But they can satisfy and calm the anxiety associated with having the wrong body or an uncertainty about an identity.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Stranger! I truly appreciate you saying that, and I agree, which is why I started captioning in the first place; To express. in some manner. the natural duality of my nature and share some of the kinky thoughts I've always harbored deep within. Not out of anxiety, but merely a form of release, since I am certain that none of us could exist if we weren't both male & female. It is such a shame that more people don't understand this as I believe it would make for a calmer, more loving world!
DeleteAgain, thank you for sharing your thoughts with me, Stranger!!!
Peace,Love&Kisses!!!